Friday, July 1, 2016

BlogBuster 94: My 2nd Pregnancy Journey

Assalamualaikum semua.


Yeah I'm back to share my next story. As stated above, it's about my 2nd pregnancy journey. Little I know, I'll get pregnant again after the 1st lost. (i mean that soon) LOL My family & friends especially Zara Airyss banyak bagi support. Diari hamil & all the ultrasound pics da selamat simpan dalam laci. Hati boleh dikatakan sedih lagi. Until I found out my menstrual cycle was a few days late than usual. Masa ni malas la lagi nak excited2 semua. Buat relax je dlu tapi early signs of preggy dah ada.Hmm..


THE CHRONOLOGY


1st October 2015

Did a PT test and it was positive. Masa ni memang da lewat sangat tu yang check jugak. Alhamdulillah sujud syukur. But I always bear in mind not to get excited until I make it through my first trimester. Ni fasa yg sangat2 critical. I did lots of reading about pregnancy and miscarriage just to make sure.


14 Oct 2015 (7weeks pregnant)
Meen & Zeda's Bridal Shower



I was 7 weeks preggy at that time. Masa ni tengah fasa mual2 jugak tapi bertahan drive ulang-alik dari Putrajaya - KL pegi keja. I still remember I experienced spotting just like my previous pregnancy. I cried on my way back to Putrajaya thinking that I couldnt handle it for another loss. Until I went to do my first scan at Hospital Bersalin Berisiko Rendah at Putrajaya. The doc said congrats when I was a bit negative bout it.

Doc: "Ada heartbeat ni, nampak x baby awak kecik je dalam tu?"

Me: "Seriously doktor? Ada heartbeat ke? Betul ke ni? *Nanges dalam hati*

Masa tu I even felt reluctant to see the image from the ultrasound. Just imagine how heartbroken I was. My mom & my lil sister accompanied me and I was smiling with teary eyes.

Since my pregnancy was categorised as high risk pregnancy, I was given duphaston to be taken twice daily and also an injection from the specialist since my spotting didnt stop immediately after consuming duphaston.


The injection was given when I was 8 weeks preggy and I did the buku merah a bit early since the doc need to monitor my progress. Alhamdulillah after 5 days, no more spotting and I cried a lot during this period. The doc advised me to bedrest and I took a month leave from school. Luckily it was November and my GPK & GB were very understanding and kind.


10 weeks preggy
pic captured by Abe
Location: Sekinchan
 I really enjoyed my pregnancy when I can feel Little Wan's first kick. I must say that 2nd trimester would be the best time for me coz my tummy wasn't so big and I felt more energetic compared to my 1st and 3rd trimester. I dun wanna share bout my pregnancy until people can notice my bump by their own. Just dun feel like sharing my craving or whatsoever. My parents jadi mangsa since Abe jauh :D
I think people knew about my cempedak goreng story. Takde share craving la sangat booo. What really funny was I wanted makanan kantin from my primary school. Mana nak cari oi. I love Cakoi and went to pasar malam just to grab them. Abe la jadi mangsa kalau dia datang KL.


us during Zeda's big day
(24 weeks preggy)
2nd trimester
I was a bit sad along the journey since Abe couldnt witness my growing belly just like any other couples. Pegi check up klinik sorang2 pun dah syahdu. I will always remind him about my appointment date so that he knows its our important date. Being a PJJ couple isnt easy. I can only ring him after he got back from work which usually late at night. When I was being super excited , he was already exhausted. But I really adore his effort on being such a caring partner when sometimes my emotions were unstable. Sometimes the video call is just looking at me crying. OMG I think my family knew that I cried in my room but pretend to look OK when I was searching for food haha.


Maternity shoot
28 weeks
Location: Putrajaya



Been hoping for miracle every time I applied for Egtukar. People who didnt know the pain of PJJ will say " Ala baru bape tahun, dia utamakan yg da lama berjauhan." "OKla still jumpa every week kan?"
No we didnt meet every weekend, sometimes once a month. If we can calculate on how much we spent for the flight tickets, I think we can buy a limo. LOL. Dahla ni merapu apa plak ni.



I planned to give birth at HUSM Kelantan, so I always had a slow talk with Little wan, "Awak jangan kuar lagi ye, tunggu daddy awak datang." haaaa lepas tu tengokla dia keluar bila pulak kan zzzz...Seronok pulak dia dok dalam perut LOL. I cant wait to share my bersalin story. It's just dramatic like so dramatic. 


Oh regarding soalan sensitif,  I came across it for few times. Usually the response will be like 

Makcik 1: "Oh yela jauh kan? Susah nak jumpa." ZZZ.. 
Makcik 2 : "eh da ada isi ke?" 
Me           : "aritu ada lepas tu gugur"

TOTAL SILENCE

tula lain kali jangan tanya hahaha..

Sepanjang mengandung yang kali kedua ni, banyak craving makanan pantai timur mcm nasi dagang, laksam, cek mek molek, nasi kerabu haha mentang2 la nk bersalin kat kelate & abe ore sano , jangey tubik kecek kelate sudoh LOL. Luckily ada cikgu kat sekolah ni amik order masakan kelate, so yeah hari2 dok order dengan dia je.Berat xnaik mana, adalah dalam sekampit beras huk aloh...


Surprise Baby Shower at Cosy Place
33 weeks pregnant

The best part ever. Aunties cun from Zara Airyss buat surprise uolss. Masa ni baru balik melawat baby Adam, lepas tu konon2 nk lunch sini skali mek Aza gi masak lunch plak kt umah dia. Beriya pulak tu kitorg mkn. (read: me). So jadilah sesi dessert je kat sini. Ktorg pg asing2, so Zeda & Zawa kind of sesat xsmpai2 lagi. Rupanya dorg pg  amik props apa semua. Ciss, terkena den. Tapi end up mmg dorg tersesat betul sbb xpnh dtg restoran tu. So Meen jadi penyelamat haha... Excited ok dapat belon & warm wishes delivery card from all of u, Thank you so much! U girls are the sweetest! Love u till Jannah AUUW..We all banyak amik gambar kenangan je, xdela nak makan dalam pampers ke apa kan bidaah tu semua haha. More on our photo & sharing session. We keep it syariah compliant hehe.



I guess that's all for this BlogBuster. I will share bout my bersalin story plak. Yang ni rasanya paling xakan dilupakan sampai bila2 kot. SERIOUSLY.  Sampai anak ke sepuluh kot.Ok bye. Ok la Kausar da bangun. Till then. 








Thursday, June 30, 2016

BlogBuster 93: My 1st Pregnancy Journey

Assalamualaikum semua.

Mak aih, da setahun rupanya tinggalkan dunia blogging.Banyak yang nak di share sebenarnya, tapi atas kekangan waktu asyik delay je. Oklah, basically blog ni tempat nak share benda2 penting yang terjadi dalam hidup. So I guess, I would like to share my 1st pregnancy journey.


THE CHRONOLOGY


23rd June 2015.

Might be the happiest day in my life ever. Did a Pregnancy Test and alhamdulillah it was positive. Boleh dikatakan masa ni berada di awangan jugakla. I was hoping to get pregnant as early as day 1 after kawen LOL. I did the test at my rumah sewa at that time, Kenari apartment. My housemates were among the earliest one to know the news.



2nd July 2015

Mula la kepochi dkt in laws and some of the teachers at my school pun tau. This is the downside okay when u kena usik macam2 zzz.. Semangat dah beli diari hamil masa ni. My estimation due date was on 28 February 2016.



12th July 2015

Abe (my husband) came over to KL. We did the first scan at Maria's clinic Putrajaya. Sadly nothing to be seen. But the doc said maybe it's too early so we can always do another ultrasound later. I was 7 weeks pregnant at that time.



21st July 2015

Did my second scan at mama's clinic. Sadly, nothing to be seen. No heartbeat even when I was 8 weeks preggy. My mama said just get ready for the worst. My pregnancy might not survive but we still have faith in it.

That was the moment I no longer felt that I was a pregnant lady.


25th July 2015

After all the suspense, I experienced spotting and later came the bleeding  part T___T. Abe knew it was categorised as "Threatened miscarriage" but he didnt want to let me down.

I went to the labour room as I was bleeding heavily, the doc said my cervix was still sealed nicely maybe it was from my old blood. I went back home with a new hope.



2nd August 2015

Had a hearty breakfast with Abe at Umai Cafe when suddenly I felt sudden cramp around my tummy and it gradually became worse. I tumpah darah ok mcm dalam drama selalu buat tu untuk orang gugur tu. Padahal masa tu plan nk meronda merata but ended up went to the hospital.

I was pushed using a wheelchair and masa tu memang dah rasa xde hope sgt untuk baby selamat. I still remember I can hear the Zohor Azan in my room. Doktor agak lambat masa ni sigh. I mintak dkt nurse utk panggil abe masuk teman huhu..abe did explain to the doc what happened. All the jargons from the medic stuff & maybe doc tu pun cam pelik LOL. It took them around 1 hour to clean everything in my womb. NO D&C was done because I had a complete miscarriage. Doc tunjukla apa yg ada masa tu. It was just a round shape meat yang xde rupa org pun. Nurse sgt supportive & banyak bg semangat masa down T__T .Masa tu specialist pun dtg nk check everything & I was a bit mad when the doc sempat lagi buat revision mana ovari etc masa I tgh sakit gila T___T. I was being monitored for an hour.

Masa tu termenung tengok siling hospital. Ya Allah, punah satu harapan. T___T masa tu blur lagi xnanges mana, cuma sempat mesej GPK skolah ckp MC seminggu sebab keguguran. Balik dari hospital tu hujan la plak, bertambah syahdu. Masuk dlm keta, bahu abe jadi tempat bersandar.

Bermulalah episod menangis tak sudah. Abe xlunch lagi masa tu, da nak dkt pukul 4pm. So masa tunggu abe beli makanan tu, ternampak pulak sorang ayah bergurau senda dengan baby dia. OK BANJIR LAGI T__T masa tu pulak dok pasang lagu opick dalam keta, lagi la syahdu oi.

I gugur hari Ahad, masa tu nanges plak memikirkan abe kena balik KB da esoknya. So after fikir masak2, I wanna go with him to KB. I cant imagine being far away from him when I need him the most. So dgn muka sakit tu, naikla first flight to KB on Monday.

Honestly, it took me some time to accept what happened to us. I was so fragile that I can cry easily. Yelah I still pantang 44 hari tapi without a baby & I felt so sad. T__T. Pegi keja muka kena positif okay. Masa ni muncul lah segala pendapat, maybe kerap travel jadi gugur since we are PJJ, stress ajar year 6 jadi gugur. As stated by the doc, actually miscarriage ni xde definite reason how it can happen. It's like kun fayakun.


So life must go on. Abe planned a vacay for both of us so that we can chill after what had happened.





Dear miscarriage couples,What I must say is, dun feel sad for too long. Have faith in Allah. InsyaAllah He knows what's best for us. Please look on the bright side. At least, we still had the experience of being a pregnant couple. Keep on supporting each other and make lots of Doa. Keep on praying for the best :)


Pulau Redang gateaway on Sept 2015

That's all for this blogbuster. Will share about my 2nd pregnancy journey on my next post. Stay tuned. :)